The Journey Continues

Wow, it has been a few weeks since I’ve posted anything. I’m still trying to stabilize on a medication regimen.  That isn’t going particularly well.  I just changed everything I was on, and will have to change it again as I am having an allergic reaction. Thankfully, not the allergic reaction that can prove lethal, just annoying itchy bumps. Dodged a bullet there for sure.  Of course it means starting over, again. That’s probably the worst part of all of this - constantly feeling like I haven’t gotten anywhere, and needing to keep starting over again and again with every medication adjustment.

I was supposed to return to work this week, but it looks like I’ll need another extension. I struggled with the idea of an extension though.  I have been out of work for 2 months at this point. Shouldn’t I go back now?  And that’s the issue - there’s no clear cut timeline from when I will be ready to go. Mental health isn’t like a broken bone - there’s no defined timeline of when you’re “healed”. And I use quotes as I’ll never actually be healed and over it. I will be Bipolar the rest of my life, it’s just getting to a stable point.  Stable is the new healed. Let’s hope I can get there sometime soon.